So yes, Lisa and also my friend Friederike have left, which is sad. But the good thing about London is that every week another one of your friends is here on holidays. Last week it was my friend Rebecca, next week my friend Tony is coming over from Ireland. Also on the upside: My friend Ulrike has just moved over here from Doha and Gabby will stay here FOR GOOD, once she's back from her holidays in Italy next week.
And of course the usual: London is still ace bla bla bla. Who am I kidding, sometimes the most acest best city in the world is not enough. My optimism re job search has been hit on the head with a hammer a few times now. And in a way I was still running around a little confused, cause everything is so different here, so that now it feels like I was fouled out of the game before anyone even explained the rules to me. All my fault, though, I know.
Nonetheless I could do with an ego boost. Or some lemon ice cream. Of course the next proper ice cream parlour is about an hour away and hopelessly overpriced.
Also today I signed on the dole, which is something that makes me cry (like literally, actually, in an internet cafe, cause I still don't have fucking internet at home) cause it's something we just don't do in my family, but I have no choice, innit. I'm broke. Don't tell my parents, please please.
My mum hasn't called me in almost two months, anyway, tho. Plus I am bleeding out of all the wrong places and am not health insured. I am definitely on the way down. And yes, I am quite aware that I sound pathetic and am drowning in self pity right now. But sometimes you have to say things as they are and I am. I am not mostly happy anymore.
BUT - and that is good news - I am not just going to run away this time. Watch me. I'll stick this one out.
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